Memory.
When we are kids we dunnot fear to fall
down. It’s because we dunnot know the consequences of it, we dunnot have any
memories yet of how it felt. When we grow up and we experience what every human
being at least should once in a life time, like love, hate, happiness, sadness,
fear or courage, we realize that some of them we would repeat all over again,
others we prefer never to remember. But when we stand still for a moment and we
think, it is impossible to just not go through it all over again. Life is a rollercoaster
ride of three impacts, past, present and future. Imagine someone erases from
your life all but the memory of the first impact. No matter if good or bad
memories, all of them disappear, because as a matter of fact you cannot choose
to erase part of your memory once you had an accident. Coming back to life you realize that all
those moments, that life that you have chosen to live by yourself is gone.
People around you will try to show you the best way to get it back, but at the
end it depends on you if you want to get it back. So how would it be? Have you
ever asked yourself the question? How would it be to lose your memories, of a
life next to a person you loved, a life you have chosen by yourself, and
realize that the only thing that is true is whatever you are being told and whatever
you remember from your past? Your future is a question mark, but the worst is
your present because besides the fact that you dunnot know who the people
around you are, you dunnot even know who YOU are... I've realized I would like
to understand what has driven me to change my life 180 degrees around. But I
have come up with the conclusion that I would never leave the person whom I was
madly in love with. I would try to fall in love with him again because at the
end...there must be some reason why I have once right? To find the way back to
him...to myself! And even if the memory would never come back again, he would
be my memory. So this entry is dedicated to all of those people who have
memories, those memories that make you the person you are. I cannot even
imagine what it would be to lose them. But what I know, and it is for sure,
that no matter what happens in the future, is it because of time, age or sickness...
we all will find the way back to each other, to whom and to where we belong due
to destiny.
I leave you Dear friends, with a promiss from the movie that inspired me to write this to you. A promiss that always will make me remember, that love can fight it all...
"I vow to help you love life, to always hold you with tenderness and to have the patience that love demands, to speak when words are needed and to share the silence when they are not and to live within the warmth of your heart and always call it home. I vow to fiercely love you in all your forms, now and forever. I promise to never forget that this is a once in a lifetime love and no matter what challenges might carry us apart, we will always find a way back to each other..."
